Sunday, September 16, 2012

Day 28-30: resolution


Day 28 journal

“Neither howling wind nor pouring rain, not blistered hands nor daunting pain
Neither frigid air nor burning sun, were my wheels gone I would fucking run
The thousand miles between our hearts, on this map only inches apart
Far as we are, know this to be true, every road that I wander leads back to you.”

I decided I am going to head out next week. My spiritual growth, complete here at the ranch. I will finish book 2 this week and maybe start on the next, after I get my tire mounted I will split. I don’t really want to head back necessarily, but I don’t want to stay anymore. The solitude is great, and productive, but I don’t feel as though I can grow here anymore. So it is time to go.

Day 30 journal

I finished the sequel to my first book yesterday. It’s good, very good. I have been getting great feedback  about my work. They love it, and I am pleased. J So I could be a writer for a living. I produce quality work very quickly and may as well enjoy the life I want.

So what to do? I mentioned 2 days ago that I am am leaving, but I really don’t want to go. I need to leave on Monday regardless, and will… that said, I may take a longer route home, I may not. I may go east, I may not. Who the hell knows? What I do know is, I love being at the ranch and living on the road. It’s awesomely fun.

I got an apartment I need to get going 3rd week of September and need to be around to sign a life insurance agreement on the 5th… so bleh. I kind of hate it. I want to sell books so I can keep traveling. It is what stimulates me. Motorcycle is awesome, RV would be awesome too… plane, train, whatever.

I am trying to get over this girl who I haven’t spoken to in a week now. It gets easier with no contact for sure… but I feel like it might snap back the minute we talk. I don’t know what it’s like for her right now, but us not talking is hard. I makes me think that maybe we’re done for good… or at least, for now.

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