Day 8: 08-01-2012
Today is my ex wife's birthday.
I would have forgotten but facebook reminded me. I didn’t wish her a happy
birthday, I actually just don’t care. Well, that's not true, I hope it is good for her... but it doesn't matter to my life anymore.
Been writing most of the
day. Walked and ran 5.5 miles around the ranch which was great. Making huge
progress on my story. My sister has been bugging me every few seconds, and everyone
continually asks for my help with mundane tasks. Fixing a Tv, a VCR, helping
open a bottle or a can… It’s like they know I am focused and working, but want
to find reasons for their lives to pivot on my existence. Kind of irritated and
looking forward to when everyone is gone.
Pretty tired tonight too,
going to write as much as I can before sleep gets me.
The girl should have got her
cake today… hopefully she liked it. She didn’t call though…
Scratch that. At 9:30pm I got a message that she wanted to talk. It would
take her about 20 minutes to get home from where she was. She was buying her
favorite ice cream and lit a candle for her birthday and I and her kids sang
happy birthday to her. So she got to have her wish. J
I am happy that she liked
her cake and her ice cream. Got to talk with the kids a bit and the girl and I
talked for 50 minutes. 30 yesterday… we really get talking for a long time when
we do. We did the whole, “Lost in each others eyes” thing again too… I told her
I loved her and I missed her, it got a smile but she didn’t say it back… and
she also said that she felt bad that I am so kind to her after she broke my
heart… I don’t like that kind of talk. I like moving forward, not discussing
the past.
What will happen? I have no
idea at all.
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